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Don't really know where to start with this one. On Monday I was ambulanced into Gloucester Royal with a collapsed lung following the biopsy and so I missed my Tuesday appointment at the Brompton for the biopsy results. Had to have a chest drain in for 3 days in the acute care unit and then they transferred me to the normal chest ward.

Last night the Brompton spoke with the consultants at Gloucester to give my results and they've told me I have lung cancer. I'm dazed, shocked, numb, upset - the full monty. Next step full body scan to see if it is anywhere else before they decide which way to go. At the moment, if the biopsy site is the only cancer, they are talking about surgery as it is on the edge of the lung, not the middle, and very small. It doesn't show up on X-ray but it does on CT and my blood tests aren't showing cancer markers. I pray this is as good news as it can be but now I am waiting to get through the next hurdle of the body scan.

I can't believe it - the last scan showed the marks had made a regression. How can this be? I know I should have put this somewhere in the forums but I'm not thinking straight - I'm so scared. Carmen.xx

Posted at 19th Nov 2009 - 05:18PM   Posted by Woozle1967   Panic Comments: 42

Faith's Avatar Oh sweetheart, here I am the first to answer and I dont know what to say. Of course you are scared, who wouldnt be? We are all here with you, and they did say very small.... You will get through the body scan, and then you will know more.

I will IMMEDIATELY light my candle for you, and Im just about to go to prayers at 6pm so will pray that bad things will stay little and you have a positive outcome.

Big hugs and all purple vibes,

Faith xx

Posted by: Faith on 19th Nov 2009 at 05:22PM

Arosebyanyothername's Avatar I don't know what to say either. There should be some comfort in the smallness, the site and the other good signs but I am sure you are not feeling it right now.

Just sending you all the best quality Purple vibes and whatever else will make this nasty news turn better. Rosiexx

Posted by: Arosebyanyothername on 19th Nov 2009 at 05:26PM

Dear Carmen,

I am so sorry to read this, and understand the terror a cancer diagnosis brings.

How you feel is perfectly normal, I felt dazed and confused for weeks, and a year on, I am still struggling to come to terms with it, so be kind to yourself, and just take each day as it comes - it is bound to be an emotional roller coaster.

If it would help you to talk to someone who understands completely how it feels, I'd be happy to give you my number.

Macmillan also offer some great support through their phone lines, the message boards and the chat room there - knowing you arent alone with this can make a big difference.
Macmillan Cancer Support

Sending you love and hugs, xxxx

Posted by: Zoe on 19th Nov 2009 at 05:35PM

Carmen I just want to be there and give you a big hug. You've been through so much I just want to wave a magic wand for you. I know that you are strong and once you get over the shock you will move forward. Zoe's link is marvellous. My mum has a brilliant Macmillan nurse who answers all those questions, (or finds out the answers), that we forget to ask when sitting in front of the doctor.
Know that your not alone cariad xxx

Posted by: Pili Pala on 19th Nov 2009 at 05:58PM

Lily's Avatar I'm so, so sorry to read your post. I'll light a candle for you when I visit Buckfast Abbey on Saturday. From what you say it seems to be the best of a bad situation, my thoughts and prayers are with you.xx

Posted by: Lily on 19th Nov 2009 at 06:08PM

Withy Brook's Avatar Dearest girl, I am so sorry to hear your news, but from what you say, it is not nearly as bad as it might be. We will all be praying for you from now on and especially when you go for your scan. I know you are terrified but have courage and keep fighting. The power of purple will be there with you every step of the way. Zoe has already given you positive help. God bless you.

Posted by: Withy Brook on 19th Nov 2009 at 06:15PM

Westerwitch's Avatar Oh Woozle . . . so very sorry . . . what a bogger this news is and coming right on top of being taken to hospital in an ambulance. Sending you a big hug and we will all be sending you Purple Vibes for the 'kinder' diagnosis ie cancer only on the edge of the lung . . .

Posted by: Westerwitch on 19th Nov 2009 at 06:24PM

Toady's Avatar Darling Woozle I'm so sorry. Please be assured that we are all here for you and will be in our thoughts.
Massive purple hug.

Posted by: Toady on 19th Nov 2009 at 06:28PM

Bradan's Avatar Dear Woozle I'm so sorry to hear your news. Keeping you close in thoughts and prayers. Much love. xx

Posted by: Bradan on 19th Nov 2009 at 06:47PM

Woozle1967's Avatar Thank you everyone - feeling a little more chilled about it just being back at home. Mum and dad's been and have chatted to friends - the support is overwhelming. My best friend in London has sent me a huge tied bouquet with my favourite flowers in - ones I had in my wedding bouquet. She remembered them all. Jimmy is being marvellous and my heart is aching for him - he lost his mum to lung cancer when he was just 16 and I can't bear to see him hurting. I know he's frightened too - he can't hide it in his eyes, even though we are all latching on to the positive bits.

Zoe, thank you so much for your offer and I shall check out the Macmillan site.xx

Posted by: Woozle1967 on 19th Nov 2009 at 06:49PM

Pipany's Avatar Carmen, I am so, so sorry. Hang on to all the others have said - you don't know the whole story yet and it could well be so much better than you must be thinking. My heart goes out to you. Much love xx

Posted by: Pipany on 19th Nov 2009 at 07:33PM

Jaynebeth's Avatar Oh Woozle. I wish I could do more than offer words, your shock and pain were so cutting my heartached for you.

I hope now you're home surrounded by your own things you'll get support and comfort.

Keep us updated


Posted by: Jaynebeth on 19th Nov 2009 at 07:33PM

Inthemud's Avatar Dear Woozle,
So sorry to hear your news. No wonder you are scared. Such a difficult thing to deal with. As Zoe said it is good to find someone you can talk to who will understand.

Sending you warmest wishes and a {{BIG, BIG HUG}}

Love Muddie x

Posted by: Inthemud on 19th Nov 2009 at 07:41PM

Mountainear's Avatar I'm scared for you too and truly hope that there is some good news for you out there - that seems like a possibility? One step at a time and don't feel you have to bottle all your fears and feelings. You're not alone.

I think ZoŽ's link is a good place to start.

Thinking of you and sending every best wish, Fx

Posted by: Mountainear on 19th Nov 2009 at 08:12PM

Crystal Jigsaw's Avatar I'm sending my love to you, Carmen, and you are very much in my thoughts and prayers. Life is so incredibly cruel at times, but we keep going, together.

CJ xx

Posted by: Crystal Jigsaw on 19th Nov 2009 at 08:14PM

Suffolkmum's Avatar And al my love and prayers too dearest Carmen. Like everyone else I wish I could pull the magic words out of a hat - just keep repeating, like a mantra, that they've found it early and so far the news is s encouraging as it can be in the circs. Really thinking of you tonight. You know we're always here, I will check in with you as often as I can xxxx

Posted by: Suffolkmum on 19th Nov 2009 at 08:21PM

Ivy's Avatar I have pm'd you xxx

Posted by: Ivy on 19th Nov 2009 at 08:23PM

Silverhead's Avatar Woozle, add my thoughts and prayers to all those above. We're all rooting for you.

Posted by: Silverhead on 19th Nov 2009 at 08:34PM

Wizzard's Avatar Oh Woozle, you poor thing. Zoe alerted us facebookers to your plight. My prayers and thoughts are with you.


Posted by: Wizzard on 19th Nov 2009 at 08:44PM

Fennie's Avatar Dear Woozle - must be terribly scary for you. We are with you. Try to stay positive and calm. I shall add to the thoughts and prayers, candles and purple vibes. Courage, my dear, courage. Love Fenniexx

Posted by: Fennie on 19th Nov 2009 at 09:16PM

Tiggywinkle's Avatar Glad to hear woozle you are back in the comfort of your home. Will keep the prayers up that the body scan will go well for you. I have a friend recovering from a full lung removal last year and she is doing brilliantly. So try to keep your spirits up, and you know we are all here to support you. xx

Posted by: Tiggywinkle on 19th Nov 2009 at 10:15PM

ChrisH's Avatar Well, even though I'm way down on the list, I still don't know what to say to you. I'm glad Zoe could tell you something practical. All I can do is add to those who are already sending your their love and best wishes. Cx

Posted by: ChrisH on 19th Nov 2009 at 10:17PM

Tattie Weasle's Avatar Dearest Woozle
I'm sending you lots of hugs and purple vibes. I am so sorry this has happened. I can hard;y think straight let alone typwe. getting worse now see! We here is probably ther most practical thing I can say. Rest now and be don't think too hard and do what you feel you hacve to whether it be shouting and raging or crying or just cuddling. Take care. With ALL love
Tattie XXXX

Posted by: Tattie Weasle on 19th Nov 2009 at 10:37PM

ohhh nooo. I'm adding more big hugs and vibes and prayers here for you, Woozle. xx

Posted by: Seashell Cosmos on 19th Nov 2009 at 10:50PM

Camilla's Avatar Dear Woozle,

Can completely understand you are scared, so much for you to worry about, but please know that we are all here for you. It is good to find a friend to talk to who will understand as Zoe has said.

Sending you my love and best wishes dear Woozle and a great big HUG.


Posted by: Camilla on 19th Nov 2009 at 10:55PM

Irish Eyes's Avatar Dear Woozle, my heart goes out to you, you know you have my prayers, keep positive and take it one day at a time,
Much love

Posted by: Irish Eyes on 19th Nov 2009 at 11:37PM

Patsy's Avatar Dear Woozle, so sorry to hear such awful news but as every one has said, think positive, be kind to yourself and get as much advice as you possibly can.
The people at Macmillan are wonderfully reassuring, do get in touch with them soon.
In my thoughts,

Posted by: Patsy on 19th Nov 2009 at 11:55PM

Frances's Avatar Well, Woozle, I have read your message very late in the day. So many around here have already sent messages of support and information. (Zoe is incredible.)

I add my good wishes, and want you to find every bit of information availabe, and the best care. I guess that I wish that these Macmillan folks whom I read about were also available over here. Use their expertise.

Hugs, more hugs, even more. xo

Posted by: Frances on 20th Nov 2009 at 01:05AM

Boudicca23's Avatar Woozle, I'm so sorry for your news. I've just seen Zoe's prompt on Facebook. What a shock for you all. The macmillan nurses are angels in human form and you shouldn't feel reluctant to rely on them for anything at all. Sending purple vibes your way.

Posted by: Boudicca23 on 20th Nov 2009 at 09:51AM

Lawyerlady's Avatar You are in my thoughts and prayers xxx

Posted by: Lawyerlady on 20th Nov 2009 at 10:14AM

Fairy Nuff's Avatar Dearest Woozle how awfull for you,all fingers and toes crossed here for you.
Zoe is right Macmillan are a Godsend.

Posted by: Fairy Nuff on 20th Nov 2009 at 10:24AM

Twiglet's Avatar Thinking of you and sending purple vibes and my rainbow to lift your spirits.

Posted by: Twiglet on 20th Nov 2009 at 11:40AM

Preseli Mags's Avatar I've only just found this - sorry to be so late. I'm thinking of you too and adding my purple vibes to all of the others above. xx

Posted by: Preseli Mags on 20th Nov 2009 at 01:20PM

Carman sweetheart a BIG BIG HUG your way>>>>Off now to kick something Evil or Very Mad Why does **** happen to the nicest people ????

Posted by: Bodran on 20th Nov 2009 at 03:37PM

Angel's Avatar My dear friend. What awful news. Now you stay as strong and as well as you can to fight this b****r! I'll e-mail you in a bit

Posted by: Angel on 20th Nov 2009 at 03:50PM

KittyB's Avatar Oh, honey, just wish there was more we could do... but adding my support to all the rest. Take very good care of yourself - keep as fit and strong and healthy as possible xxx

Posted by: KittyB on 20th Nov 2009 at 05:08PM

Elizabethm's Avatar Dear Carmen, coming to this late but wanting you to know how much I am thinking of you and sending you my love. xxx

Posted by: Elizabethm on 20th Nov 2009 at 09:41PM

Cait's Avatar Dear Carmen,

I am late to this but send you my love.

We are all behind you, there is a great aura of purpleness with you, keep that in mind. And you will find strength, I know that from experience.

God bless,
I shall go and light a candle now.

Posted by: Cait on 21st Nov 2009 at 01:14PM

Mollygolver's Avatar Have just read your post. My thoughts and prayers are with you too.

Posted by: Mollygolver on 21st Nov 2009 at 05:01PM

Blackbird's Avatar Oh Woozle, I'm so sorry to hear your news but I'm hopeful that everything will turn out well for you. Stay positive and take it bit by bit. I'm thinking of you and sending even more purple vibes.

Posted by: Blackbird on 21st Nov 2009 at 09:25PM

Milla's Avatar shocked and upset to read this, Carmen. What a, well, what a shock. Nothing to say and feel such sorrow that one of the good guys has been struck like this, but sending love to you and wishes for the best possible outcome. XXX

Posted by: Milla on 22nd Nov 2009 at 01:32PM

CalicoKate's Avatar Oh help am sooo late to this news, you'll think I don't care. But I really truely do care loads and am so sad to hear this news. Everyone has said everything already so I can onb;y echo what has been said above.
Take care. Hugs available if they are of any use. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Posted by: CalicoKate on 24th Nov 2009 at 10:51AM

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